Monday, October 24, 2011

Biopsy Done!!

My breast cancer journey!

Hi people! Am back with not-so-stable feelings!

Before that, Happy 3rd birthday to my Hero, Rayyan Adrian! We love you son! We had the makan-makan last nite. Will blog about it in my next entry ya.

As promised, here’s my story on what happened last Friday. Sorry for the long wait… Kunun!

9.00am – registration at Hospital Pantai Ampang.   

Even though I already made my appointment, still it is a 'first-come-first-serve' basis.
Perhaps I was quite early, so masih kosong lagi!

9.40am – met Dr Teo, Surgeon Specialist. Macam biasa la.. sessi sual-kenal & soal-jawab! After studied the scan by the National Cancer Society, I have to lied down and kena ramas² lagik!! *benci!* Was asked to do another scan ultrasound and also Mammogram! I was puzzled when he asked me to do Mammogram. Then, he explained. Mammogram is usually for ladies 35 and above. But, in some cases, Mammogram will still show the cancer existence, if any! Besides, mine got two lumps. One is exactly at n*pple which are bad! *sweating*

10.00am – 11.30am – waiting turn for ultrasound and mammogram!

The Mammogram machine and the result

11.30am - 12.00pm – see Doc again with the results. Base on the Mammogram, Doc said if it’s cancer, there will be white dots on the lumps. Was quite relief to hear that there is no white dots on my lump. I think he only mentioned that at 1 lump and not the other lump on the n*pple!

Biopsy is a must!!

Since I’m using the company insurance, I will be only covered if I am admitted or at least a day care (which required at least 6 hours at the Hospital) before I can proceed with the Biopsy.

12.00pm – 1.45pm – waiting for them to prepare the necessary for admission and get ‘green light’ from Insurance. While waiting, sempat la juga had a light lunch – currypuff and ice tea. Mana ada selera owh!

1.45pm – 6.45pm – due to ‘no-bed’ at the female ward, was asked to admit at Pediatric Ward. It’s a two-bedded room with toilet and tv on each bed. I was on my own the whole afternoon. Waiting, waiting and waiting for Doc to perform Biopsy!! At the end, was asked to go back and come back tomorrow morning at 8am! Bikin panas kan??!!!

My room!

Tea time and dinner!
Looking the 'kaki lima', bikin takut oo kan?!

The next day…

7.20am – Morning ‘alarm’ by the Hospital. To come as soon as possible. Doctor is waiting!

8.00am – admitted at female’s ward. 

8.15am – 8.30am – Biopsy room! *faint* Before that, Doctor apologized about yesterday. He claimed that he went to the Biopsy room but I was not there and he was not informed that I was at the Pediatric ward! Huh?!!

To perform Biopsy, Doc injected me for the ‘bius’ on the breast of coz. After that, he asked for 7 size blade from the nurse!! OMG!! Kenapa la I have to listen to that?!! Yeah, he made a small cut on the breast. Of coz I can’t feel anything. It’s already numb maa… Then the Biopsy began!! I have to bear 8 times of samples-taking!! Gila eh!! I dare not to look at the breast, if you ask! He cleans up everything, plaster and done! Rasa macam kena tikam opss.. not really.. but you can feel he’s 'stabbing' on you softly and the pull’s part yang paling tidak best! Wuaaaa…

Next, can go back to bed and wait for discharge! Doc’s advice??!! It is really beyond my imagination and expectation! Trust me, no woman will want to hear this!!

“If it’s only here, I can just remove this part (pointing at the other lump). But, this one right at the n*pple is very high chances to get cancer. So, I have to remove the whole breast! Otherwise, you still can preserve your breast!!”

Apa kamu rasa?? Urin??!!

Seriously, I can’t feel anything! I can’t think of anything! I was shocked!

8.30am – 11.30am – As informed, discharged process will take about 2-3 hours. So, I just stayed at my bed, waiting while sms-ing my hubby and bbm-ing my colleague updating them the current status!

“takkan kau nak buang semua beb??” that statement really hit me and I burst into tears!!

I managed to calm myself down after hubby replied me with “it’s ok.. just go ahead! Better than to get cancer!!”

11.30am – discharged! Total bill = RM1,600++ (Thanks to the Company!) To come again on Tuesday (tomorrow) to see doctor and collect the biopsy’s result.

If you ask me now… the result is no longer important to me coz whatever it is... I will still lost one of the asset!! Wuarghhhhh…

Anyway, thank you for all the encouraging words specially beloved hubby and mom for the positive supports. Without them, I am totally down!

Thanks also to Sis Mouren for the advice! I like it the most… “Yang penting sekarang, ko mesti go ahead with life. Ko mesti tengok anak ko membesar. Biar lah ilang sebelah breast, yang penting tidak ilang nyawa ko!” Macam terbangun saya baca!!

Thank you again. Will be fine and stay positive! *wink*

Sorry for the long post!


  1. Just...i was waiting of ur update ni...Be srong okey..Jadi mau buka kan..dei just sa inda dapat bayangkan apa perasaan ko ni..dei just mcm sa pun takut owh..tapi kalau tu lah rencana Tuhan sama sia, sa terima saja ni just...Be stong ah Just (for me too)

    breast tu x penting jg..anak2 ko yang penting Just..lebih baik ilang breast daripada nyawa melayang kan Just..

    Pray for you just..

    Sa adore ko punya keberanian buat ni post..

  2. Oh Gosh Just... I really don't know what to say... My prayers goes to you... please be strong =)

  3. Salam,

    tabik spring 1000000 kali!

    takpa Allah ambik yang ni, esok-esok insyaAllah dia bagi something yang lebih baik.

    speedy recovery!

  4. You are a true SuperWoman! Proud of you Just!

    There are so much to you than that, I am sure all your loved ones agree with me ;) get well soon ya

  5. Beginilah dugaan kita just. Kadang2 Tuhan sengaja menduga kita utk melihat sejauh mana cinta kita terhadap rahmat Tuhan. Mudah2an just kembali sihat demi anak2 dan keluarga, InsyaAllah......

  6. why don't u go for 2nd opinion? at gov hosp maybe?

  7. Hi just be strong. i know its not easy to done when you facing times like this but at this point don't let negative tots overcome your fear but take the positive tots instead to move on and fight. Here some quotes for you to hold

    "Keep your fears to yourself but share your courage with others." ~Robert Louis Stevenson

    "If children have the ability to ignore all odds and percentages, then maybe we can all learn from them. When you think about it, what other choice is there but to hope? We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up, or fight like hell". ~Lance Armstrong

    Have faith with god for he is owez there and listen for people who has asked from him. GBU and family just.

  8. I love ur positivity, reminded me of someone dear that i lost.

  9. honey, I dont care If I'm "loosing" one of ur asset... I do care If I loosing u.. get strong.. Me and our kids will be always beside u. (^_^)

  10. Dear Just,

    I'm truly sorry and saddened to hear this. You are a strong woman, sempat lagi ko tulis and update. I can't even begin to imagine if this happened to me. *Touchwood*

    You are in my prayers.

  11. iya btol! inda apa ilang sebelah breast yg penting jauh dr itu cancer then bleh tingu anak2 membesar daripada sakit2 kan.
    sa xda insurance bah skrg. kira mcm kes ko n c beaty ni kira wake up call bah utk sa. next month start sudah sa byr itu insurance. in case ada jadi apa2, senang bah kan. bah be strong ah. jaga kesihatan.

  12. strong k..pls be strong. Ur hubby n kids need you.
    eh, entah tiba2 saya sedih o baca..saya terharu baca post ko ni. Ko kuat betul o...

  13. Sis Just: Sa betul2 hormat sama sis untuk keputusan sis. be strong sis. as ur hubby said... sis lebih penting untuk dia dan anak2 kamu. be strong... doakan semoga semuanya selamat dan tak jgn lupa bersandar lebih pada TUHAN. God Knows the best.

  14. Sis..i really salute u! You are such a brave and strong woman...Keep fighting!!

  15. No worry about that Sis Just.. Ko di antara kawan perempuan si Aki yang cukup kuat dan firm dengan keputusan sendiri.. No worry,ko bulih tu.. Yang penting,still,jangan feel down,remember,U have ur LIFE,ur FAMILY and US,your Friend!! ^_^.v.. Just be GRATEFUL for all that you have!! Yeah,apa-apapun,u r in si Aki's prayer.. ^_^.v..

  16. I purposely get the other bloggers to motivate you.

    Nah sis, yang penting positive thinking tu. Eveybody support you! Nice kan...*like*

    Take care kio (^^)

  17. Tengkiu semua! Yeahh.. will be strong and positive no matter what! :)

  18. bila sa baca post ko ni just, sa terdiam juga oo tp sa suka la ko punya ketabahan...yup, be strong la u said, your kids la ko punya kekuatan skrg...and like others said, biar hilang itu barang dr hilang nyawa...take care Just..

  19. Just,
    nangis sy baca n3 ko..tsk..tsk..(serious). kuatkan semangat ok..btl tu, biarlah hilang satu drpd hilang nyawa..ingat tu fikir bukan2 doakan yg terbaik utk ko..

  20. just,

    be strong.. pasti ada hikmah di sebalik kesulitan ini.. FIGHTING!!!

  21. Hi Just, first time here. Reading this made me speechless. I hope things are fine. Be strong.

  22. Sis.. I was so shocked after reading this.. That was a very hard decision..

    Semoga sis kuat hadapi semua ni..
    Berkat Tuhan sentiasa bersama2 sis sekeluarga.. tabahkan diri k..

    Psalm 23:1-4
    The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures; he leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; he leads me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

  23. *Tight hug*

    I'm sorry you have to go through this horrible thing. Speed recovery Just. You're such a strong person. MGBU.


  24. Even though we don't know each other, but I know you are STRONG and POSITIVE in handling this temptation. will include you in my prayer. God Bless you you, your family.

  25. ni hospital..just 5 min drive dari rumah sewa sy just...

  26. Hi Just

    Found your site through Chegu's. We don't know each other but my thoughts are with you. Hope everything's goes well.


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